Ageless like the stars...: 11/1/09

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

French tip

manicure it is :)
i like it much much much! french tip is my fave..
love it!

NO to empty words. I swear. Promise.

my words are not empty, just unfulfilled. there's something holding me back and i have no idea what it is. just wait a minute let me catch my breath, I'll tell you in a minute, I'll get it over and done with. it's just an identification, it'll be intriguing. i hope it doesn't cause any problems. i don't want anything changing. 2009's first half has definitely brought upon change in my life in so many ways, you my friend have a part to play. i write this up as i do making up this "poem" or whatever you may call it. this could be dedicated to you, but I'd rather say for myself. i may sound selfish but i gotta be honest. it's really nothing special i just felt like filling the gaps in. Today and every other day that you have been around will definitely something i will remember.you may have bad memory, and maybe so do i.but i remember more than you do, especially the first goodbye. i may sound lame, i know i do. so don't go leaving anytime soon cos so far I'm enjoying life with you. I thank you very much for keeping me such a happy child, okay this poem is really kinda dedicated for you, but it's not like you'll ever find it.when you do and you get to this part of the writing i know you'll be smiling, not only cos i predicted so but cos you found it. you deserve a gold medal or maybe even a trophy, cos i know you just let out a big sigh and said "well finally".

ok. so i feel so dumb for typing that whole thing up. not only am i kinda really just directing to one person but i posted it on blog. ok? dumb. i dunno i just kinda felt like writing i guess.

I REALLY DON`T KNOW

don't you just hate it when you're having such a good day then suddenly you feel this gush of uncertainty or confusion or sadness? I DO. today was going pretty good... until after i had lunch. I just felt uneasy, I couldn't figure out exactly what was bugging me. I actually didn't even realize til someone pointed out to me that it looked like something was wrong when really I was just sitting down.. How on earth is that possible? How do we not know what is troubling us? Do we see everything else but not the bigger picture? Is there something bigger to see that somehow the world won't let me see? And why is this happening? Ugh.. I've been thinking about it for around 4 hours, and it's absolutely frustrating! I've looked at every angles but still I can't see anything. Is this normal? Or am I just completely missing something? Nganganganganganganga (<-thats the sound of me being annoyed/frustrated)nganganganganganga.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

My friends. The memories.

The nights that lasted forever and the days that went by so slowly. The nights that will replay in our heads all through, put highschool as our best night fever. The boys that we`ve kissed. The boys that have broke our hearts with the promises they never kept. The alcohol that we drank all too quickly on nights that everything seemed to be going wrong. The other girls that hated us for being perfect and envied the life we led. So here`s to you guys.. the friends that have stayed by my side when i didn`t know who i was. The friends that i would never trade for anything beacuse - - - THEM GIRLS ARE MY LIFE.

KLARINS

JHAMINA

CARISSA

FAYE

JANINE

DADA

They are like stars...
You don`t always see them, but you know they`re always there.. :)

ilovelovelove you girls..... BIG TIME!!
xoxo

Monday, November 2, 2009

This is who i am.

I forgive,
but i DON`T forget.

CHERISH yesterday. LIVE today. DREAM tomorrow.

I`ve made mistakes in my life. I`ve let people take advantage of me, and i accepted
way less than i deserve. But, I`ve learned from my bad choices and even though there are some things i can never get back and people who will never be sorry, I`ll know better next time and i won`t settle for anything less than i deserve.

"THERE ARE NO REGRETS IN LIFE, JUST LESSONS."